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Young at our sisters house. id give anythung \to have those days again.
Steve and mom at Chucly Cheese. He sure had 'Stev running that day. He was such a great uncle.
Steve sledding with 'Devn, Nicole and Jose/
Happier Tmes. Stepen's 21st party or I should say his slam dunk.
Steve with Jose n G, nickname for Devin.
Stephen and his dad, Mike. I just love Stephen's smile.

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Steve and I doing our fav. thing, t Fishing. Don't know if I fish now!!
Awesome pic a friend did from #notinvain, a fb group for grieving mama's who list a child to drugs.
Stephen and his mom, Lady, as he called me. Oh how my hurt aches!
Great Day for Steve, Nicole and Devin. At the history museum.
Nicole and Stephen in their teen, I think. Goofing around. Cute kids huh!
Steve and Nicole on her wedding day. They were so happy. Oh dear God, thank you for this day.

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Stephen with his lare cousin, Anthony. I pray they are together with the Lord. Uncle Syl is well.
A nice pic of Stephen from hs service. This was a happy day with Devin and Jose sledding.
Our Stephen and many pics of him. I talk to him and touch his ashes. Oh god, I miss him terribly!
Stephen loved this shirt. He loved E. T and lived in the hood. He looks so happy. Pics n memories
Steve as a Lil guy with his beloved grandma. Th Together now pain and anguish free with our Lord.
A friend from fb group made for me. Luv it n so true. I will see him again and we will be perfect!

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Nicole getting a hug from her little (not size) brother. She missed him and her heart is broken.
Stephen and Jose two years ago at Devins bday at Madison Park.
Steve with his dad, Mike and grandma, Barbara. He cherished his grandparents n he is with them now!
My love for my son is everlasting and untill I see him again, he will remain. Love Lady
A cute olel pic of all of us. Stephen was about 2 and Nicole 5...
They were out for Stephens 21st birthday. He doesn't remember much of it but he had a great time!

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This is true but we did Stephen have to leave me so young?
I pray he rests in peace. He was not at peace here. He was tormented. Oh my heart hurts so!
We went fishing w/ Capt. Denny for walleye. I caught a record 31 inch walleye. We had a great day!
Nicole's wedding. They were so happy that day. Thank God we didn't lose him before the wedding!
Steve running at the 5k lung cancer run.. He came in like 3rd or 4th even though he was a smoker.
At the jumpyard for Devins bday. Oh I'd give anything to just see him smile one more time.

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At the 5k for lung cancer and Steve ran for me. He felt good doing it for me. It was a happy wknd.
Stephen very happy with whatever drink n more and hugging one of his crushes, Nicole's girl, Tara.
Stephen n I in Columus at 5k for lung cancer he ran for me. He was quick n came in like 3rd or 4th.
Happier days, I'd give anything for 1. He could have been a good dad! Devin, him and Romeo!
Nice pic of Stephen when we lived in Lkwd. He was 19 and we didn't know he had 10 yrs. left to live.
Two of Stephens friends, Jared and Jason at hospital the day he died. They came and talked to him.

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Oh I would give almost anything to hug him one more time, I wouldnt let him go. My heart is broken!
Stephen with his shades on. Looks pretty good. I think this was at Nicole's.
A great day. They came to an American Lung Cancer fundraiser, Lung force, to walk with me.
Love this one. Uncle Steve with Devin. How Devin lived him and if course he loved Devin so much.
OMG... THIS IS SO TRUE AND NO ONE WOULD KNOW UNLESS THEY WERE VERY CLOSE LIKE WE WERE!
Good one of me, Devin and Stephen at Nicole's. Dev was about 2 yrs. old. PRECIOUS!

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Great pic. Thus was at a party about 4 or 5 yrs. ago. Wish I could see them together again.
Here he is just acting goofy like usual. He could be really funny in a natural and relaxed manner.
Don't know where they were eating but I definitely like this one.
Picture of my mom. Grandma W. And Stephen at Devins 2nd birthday party at Nicole's.
Stephen with Grandma B. She loved Stephen and Stephen loved her and could definitely show her.
This was a few years ago sled ridding at the hill at Memphis n Tiederman with we Nicole, Jose n Dev.

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This was last Easter at Nicole's... I remember hewanted to get home that day!
Stephen liked this shirt. Nicole gave it to him. He didn't wear it too often cuz it was left there
Nice pic taken at our place probably 5byrs ago. I miss him so. My heart really hurts when I cry.
Created a Lil memory area for my baby. When warmer, I'm planting some ground flowers
I have to put Stephen's grandparents here. He is gone and loved them alot and he is with them now.
Mike and I. We loved him so much and he felt the same. We were close and it was so important to him

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NO ONE Knows what it's like to feel the worst pain of all, that of losing a child, unless you have
Nicole giving big hugs to Stephen and Tom, her cousin. Nicole always took care of her Lil brother.
People important to Stephen. Of course that's Nicole n Jose. Good pic of Mr. & Mrs. Elias.
Had to put a photo of our Lil Maggie. Stephen loved her. I miss him calling her, Skinny Weiner!
We went to a jump place for Devin in Avon. We were watchin him jump and Stephen was funny as usual.
This was on my baby's finger. He got it a few months ago from his friend Brandy who he worked with.

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I love this picture. I went and got a wripped pic of this scanned n have this pic to go on a tshirt
I love this pic. This was at our 2nf house in Brook Park. Stephen was 3 or 4 in this picture.
This pic was taken of us at Disney World in 2000. We stayed at one of the resorts. Steve is 10 yrs
This says it all. Im broken and shattered without him. Our relationship we special and Im emoty
This was 2 summers ago..happier days. He just got out of rehab n for a bit I was with my real son..
I just love this pic. This was 1 yr ago after Thanksgiving. How I wish he could give us 1 more hug.

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He is being a fish here. He was so funny all the time. I miss him soooo bad. BMy baby is gone..
This may be upside down but our relationship wasn't. This was an endearing moment. Loved him so.
My lil babies. They were Lways buddies. Think she was 7 n him 4. They were very close. Luv them
camping at Mohican with Lyn n syl and canoeing down the river. I'd give anything for 1 day of this
Luv this obe or two. Lil man and Nicole. I think he was about two in his chair. How cute
Both of them with gmma w. She watched them so much and she was like a 2nd mom to them

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Awesome pic of Nicole with him at Stephens graduation. So happy he was before HEROIN
He was so happy and I was also. I worked so hard for him to graduate and he did it.
THIS WAS THE LAST PIC OF STEPHEN. HE LOOKED UNHAPPY AND WE THOUGHT HE WAS OK...I MISS HIM SOOO
We are doing tshirt quilt. My cousin is doing it. We are putting pics of him and us on 4 pieces
This is one if my pieces for a quilt we are doing out of tshirts. We are 4 of the pieces with pics
Stephen with my Mom and Dad. Thru spoiled him so AMD now they can watch over him in heaven.

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Love this pic. Think it was like 5 yrs ago at the apartment. I think after he got out of jail..
This was taken downtown when he got out od rehab 2 summers ago. God his smile was contagious
Last summer just before we moved to the I HATE THIS HOUSE. IF I DIDN'T MOVE HE MAY STILL BE ALIVE!
Color off but what a cute pic of my babies. I would give a kidney n house and more 2 see him again!
Going camping. Tom laying on Nicole and Steve on Tom. Miss that too. Camping with Lyn n syl n kids
Stephen doing a selfie in our bedroom at the apartment.

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Great pic of him. High tho, what else was new. This was taken at the jumoyard but with 3 of us.
I know he liked this one. Trying to look fly here. He was a good looking man to me
Stephen with Nicole and his cousins. I think he was about 5.
Cute pic of Stephen. I think he was about 7 or 8.
There's my funny Stephen likely making Jason laugh. Its Mothers Day n I'm empty. Have Nicole to luv.
Stephen with a friend from work.

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Good pic for sure. Him sitting there on his phone wearing a hat of his choice that day.. H had MANY
Great pic. This means soo much to me today. Stephen was the baby and Anthony the oldest,both gone!
From one of 2 fb groups for Moms who lost a child to acidental overdose. There are so many like me!
So true. God how I think ALL THE TIME THINGS WHAT I COULD OF OR SHOULD OF. IT'S POISONOUS TO DO IT
Stephen with Cody, his stupid dog we would say. He was really stupid and was smart.
Here's his fb w/lector dog. Stephen named him cuz he had a muzzle when he groomed him cuz he'd bite.

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Cody and I
When he got out of rehab about 3 yrs ago. He was doing so good n quit mtgs and I couldnt help him.
Anthony after he died the same way as Stephen! He said he would see him again. He didnt no how soon
My Devin n Mike doing a pumpkin on Halloween. Strphen wanted to do with Devin but had to work
Dark, in Stephens fb. of he and Mike at Star Wars 3d. Went n stopped for few beers after. No more.
His beloved Cody and fb profile page. He loved him so and now he can be with him. What about me.

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From his fb. I think he was with Tommy Donaldson. They were friends on and off. He was ok really
His cousins and his aunt Li da and I at Nicole's wedding. He looked forward to the day so much!
there's other pics of Shoes he took n b took em dow. Found this still on his fb. He luved shoes.
Good one of his Uncle Syl and Uncle Paul at Devins bday in Metro Parks. It was a good day.
Was unplanned. Don't know where this went. They just decided to be reggae that day. He has my t on
Fishing at the pond at Westlake rec. So many good times there. Bettin who got 1st fish. Devin did!

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Great time. We went AC/DC and had a kick ass time. Damn I wNt NY baby back to have fun at more!
On his fb. Nicole's wedding with me. Laura, Toni, Tom, Tanya and Stephen.
Last Christmas. I can't celebrate another Xmas without him. We are going to NOTdo it. Cant
His pointer finger. He was Jive Dicky. He made another, and we were rolling, jivecityrecords@gmail.
Can't remember if I put this on here. I really like this. His dude Jared made this for me. Nice!
I still can't accept it and think he will be coming in the door. Im a broken mess n my baby's gone

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Yep. People try to sympathize and offer warm gestures and words of support but they can't understand
Hardest heartbreaking time. I have been in pain since I've lost him. He was supposed to bury me
5got bout this one. Stephen didn't dress but Mike was a slasher and I a witch. Dianne R had a party
Think I put one pic here of Maggie and Stephen but here's another if not.He called her skinny weiner
Really cute. Last Xmas. Devin misses Uncle Stephen so much. He was his favorite uncle
Stephen n Delilah. She was part of his life for 6 or 7 yrs.but had a toxic relationship.

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Good pic of him and Romeo with I guess, their dog then. I wish that could have been good but not.
This is a great pic of Stephen. At our apartment about 2 yrs ago. His weight was good then.
Good pic of him fishing. We had so much fun fishing. Stephen n I really luvd it. I can't fish now
Not much to say here, except this was Stephens favorite alcohol. Mine too..
Luv these four together. My fav pics of him.
Nice collage. Some of these will go on our quilt my cousin is doing out of his tshirts 4 Nicole n I

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This is one of the four we are putting on the quilts. The rest are his t shirts. 60 12 x 12 pieces
This is how I feel. Empty, sad and well, alot more I can say but for now some pics here are a start
This will be 1 piece of his quilt my cousin is making for me.
This one is going on Nicole's quilt. I really like it.
This is a good pic. We took Devin by to one of those jump places. He had a great time this day.
This one is cute. We were camping and they were in their tent and Nicole was fucking with him.

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Almost 4got this. Ni think that's like 8 yrs ago. Tara n Stephen. Tara is one of Nicole's girls.
Almost 4got this. A couple of pics from when they were little. Oh my heart hurts so much. My baby
Feels like this but add to it you are smothered n can't breathe n punched in gut n goin crazy.
This is one of Stephens dude, Brooklyn. He had outs with him few times but they were tight
His dude, Jason, they were friends since he was 16 or so.. They were tight but had some shitvbetwee
Robert was like his 1st friend in Lakewood and he lived with him for like 2 yrs. Good people

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Jared was one of his 1st friends in Lakewood. They had some good times hanging in the wood! Lol!
Here is our Lil Maggie here. He luvd her n called her skinny weiner in a high voice. I miss it so.
Oh this so true. I luv this n only I know the worst pain of losing him My baby, my son whom I luv.
This was his fb. We had 2 make an email Acct for odjfs and made jivecityrecords n rolled that day.
This was at Laura's house in a happier time. I don't think he was an addict then. Oh I miss him so
Almost 4got this. At a walk for lung cancer and that was alot of fun for sure. Not again, I'm fine

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At Devins 2nd bday. Steve just got out of cty. a few months earlier and was so happy 2 see his fam.
All of us with my dad jus b4 he died. Steve barely remembers him but he looked n was alot like him
Oh God, please take by baby with you to your kingdom. Can't wait to be with you my Lord And Stephen.
Was at Burke lakefront for Am. Lung Assoc. Lung cancer walk. All for of us that day. Was fun
Cute of the 4 cousins. Steve was still wearing glasses. He was lucky that his eye fixed with them.
Cute one of Steve with Lil Maggie when we first brought her home. She was about 5 lbs here.

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I said this at his service. I got this from one of my friends. It's simple but meaningful.
Yes, I try to say his name as much as possible. A friend sent me this also. It means alot really.
The limb was a big one. I luvd him dearly and our tree is blown apart now. Bless my son's soul.
This is true for certain but I can't get to the point of accepting it and part of me doesn't want to
GRIEF IS A WORD FOR HORROR OR PANIC AND I FEEL EMPTY AND HAVE NO MORE STEPHEN. GOD HELP ME PLEASE
They were all so happy as we were. Stephen was messing around with shut cuz he got too thin.

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Almost forgot this one. Jared made thia for me. Nice huh... .
Nicole's wedding. He was too thin then. Doing meth n stopped. Thought he was clean when he died.
This was at Nicole's wedding. He is with all the cousins except Anthony. He was looking at Tom here
Good picture of him. I loved his smile. This was at Nicole's wedding too. It was hot that day.
We were happy Untill Feb. 28 when he died in my bathroom as I tried to breathe life into him.
Luv this pic. Think I put it on here already. They were soooo happy. Nicole really misses her bro

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Will be having a memorial cookout this day or in end of July or August. Playing around with invite
This is very true. Sounds exaggerated but niit This is how i feel. I'm so unhappy, empty, depressed
Stephens Gramma, Devin n I. He loved her so They're together now. Wish I was with some days.
I can't believe I forgot this pic. I luv it. Of course that's Devin 9 yrs ago. So Steve was 20.
So true, BUT I got to spend so much time with Stephen for many years longer than most moms.
He and Delilah on his bday. I wished they could have worked it out. Maybe I wouldn't have lost him

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4g This was from Columbus also. He ran the 5k for me. Thing is I Wasn't supposed to outlive him.
In my baby's memory. The flag is so life like it's like he is looking at me when I'm out there.
I like this alot. Except for the sunshine part. Many times there was alot of fighting in home tho.
This is from one of the fb groups I belong to. So true, nothing stronger than a mother child bond.
I found a reasonably priced personalization site. Customizedgirl.com. Cute shirt huh.
So true, nothing more to say.

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This says it all. Invisible but the strongest
Cute pic I found on the cloud. We were in Cape Cod here when we went on vac. to my girl in boston
Here's another of my dad. Stephen did look like him but I think he was a Lil better looking.
In case Stephen is energy and flowinv thru many things, here's a picture of yesterday of his nephew
Of he is energy then he can see a pic n of Mike and I taken at his Uncky Syls n Aunt Lyns Mem. Day.
Good pic of me, Gmma and Jose's Mom. This here cuz he said if he was older he'd hit on Emma. Lol..

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Cute but old pic if us. I think he was 2 and his sister 5. At our 2nd house in Brook Park I think
Awesome pic of Stephen and his nephew
NO ONE KNOWS WHAT ITS LIKE LIVING WITH AN ADDICT AND PEOPLE W DO JUDGE TOO DAMN MUCH. SO F U 2 THEM
People move on and have no idea unless they have lost their. He was more than that to ne tho.
This was a very happy day, his sisters wedding. He and I set up the park. He helped me alot.
Our Maggie. Put the muzzle on to stop her from barking. It's constant. He called this Lector Dog.

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This was at the last Brook Park house. He was playing in the family room with Cody who he loved so
These were 2nd, 3rd n 4th grade. He really hated his hair. I Didn't know that till this last year.
These are cute. Us with Mickey in our pool and Cody in the cage and him in 7th or 8th grade.
Obvious what these are. My lil man. Or I should say Lil shriveled man. Had an easy labor with him.
Cute. 2 or 3 mnths n a big baby. Like 100 percentile. Doc said he 6 ft 2 and he was 6ft 1 1/2.
Us at our 2nd house in Brook Park. He was so sweet then. Gentle, nice, real person Untill drugs.

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His baseball team. He played 2 seasons then didn't want too
Us at Mike's moms funeral which was 4 1/2 yrs ago. Mike n Nicole smiling, Steve n I not
So true
When they came to Am. Lung Assoc. LUNG Force n wLked with me n others to commemorate me n others wit
Say no more
This pic is from a video at our apart. With Devin on his feet n Steve trying to be uncle Steve fun a

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One of my baby's memorials I made. He is near me most times but definitely when I'm outside
The other Lil memorial I put together. We r planting a Willow Tree with his ahes. He'd love that.
I don't know how it will get better and of course I must hang on, I have no choice. I will for Mike
Had to put Amanda here. His other friends are here. They were close at one time. I fixed them up.
I luv this pic. My son could be funny sometimes. I so miss him.. I can't stand it I'm dyin inside
This is Jason with the beard and Jerad. Jason was there a long time next to him as he laid there.

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Its a bitter sweet thing. You were an awesome person. I wonder how and what you'd be with no drugs
Brandy and her girl. Brandy worked w/him at Danny Boys n she was good to him n they were close.
I do for ur memory n for Dad n Nicole. There r times I want to end it all to be with you. Miss u so
Some days better than others. He lived with me except for like 4 yrs. and closer to me than anyone.
I'm always thinking somehow he's not gone n a miracle is going to happen, n it can't be,he's only 29
Yes, and to people that are often really good inside but have issues to deal with. It's not fair.

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I thought I'd die from panic attacks. Now I feel half dead, if I didn't have Mike I'd likely end it.
Worst I'll ever go thru. I Was very close to him, seen him die in my bathroom and tried cpr, no hope
I'm sooooooo in ok. Most days I'm just living. My baby is gone, I can't believe it yet h know
Yes and that's what I feel. Like this is just a temporary world n it's going to be normal soon
A friend on one of my fb groups made this. He was no angel alive. NOW HE IS MY ANGEL.
So true... I MISS YOU SO HORRIBLY.. I WANT TO BE WITH YOU BUT DAD N NICOLE NEEDS ME HERE..

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Never will stop... I'm learning or forced to live with it. No one knows more grief than me.
Wow, I found an old cell he had with pics This is him and Delilah. I think it was a while ago tho
This was when he was with Delilah. I know cuz they had that Lil puppy for a while.
A while ago. He was holding Romeo, Delilah son here. Bad feelings with her so I cut him off.
Good pic of Stephen. At Fairview after the birth of his supposed son. He is not his, unfortunately.
Cute and about the closest he got to a father. Romeo isn't his but I wish it could have worked out

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I love this tat. It's not my neck or anyone I know. BUT IT SAYS IT ALL.
This is a good pic of me and Stephen. It was taken at apartment 2018 summer, us coping rays!
This was taken a while ago. I've never seen a couple of these. With Delilah and Romeo.
He is trying to look dope here. He still looks like my sweet baby. God Im hollow now n miss him so
Another with the dog they had. I think Stephen said he was a good dog. Cool pic.
How cute. Steve pretending he's sleeping so Romeo would chill n go to bed. STEVES FUNNY PERSONALITY

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This was in July of 2010 at Nicole's baby shower n right around time he started playing w/opiates.
Nice pic. Stephen would have been a good dad IF he wasn't so fucked up with drugs n they got along
Obe of my fav. pics of Stephen. It's become so real. He isn't going to come in the door now!
No promise of tomorrow the nite I lost him. Seen him at 11 00 when V he got him and it was the last.
I've said enough about him n his life and I want him back. I'm so unhappy and feel devistated still
I 4got this. He looked So HAPPY n was b4 heroin. He was bout 12 with his cous Toni. We were campin

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Kinda cute but true cuz Stephen did believe in our Lord/God and he knows r hearts n Stephens was big
Don't know if he took but I think it was last summer before last. He likely jus got out of rehab.
I'm trying to think that at least I had this kind, gentle, funny, generous n loving man for 29 yrs.
Pics of Stephen running a 5k for lung cancer awareness/funds. We went to Columbus n had a good wknd
Pic of him on our porch. Believe it was last summer.
A pic of the four cousins when camping. Don't know where n when but do know they always had fun.

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This was likely taken at outpatient rehab. He got out of rehab June 5th n I was so happy for him.
This is lcfa. org fundraiser he ran in. He had his own link for donations they totalled up with res
Found this on his fb. Awesome that he asked this. He believed in our Lord so now he maybe with him
Yep inkd, that was extremely painful he said and couldn't finish so yeah he was going back for color
Nicole put together all these songs for the funeral service.n did all from obit to gofundme to this
Nice pic of him. Likely taken in summer of 2017 cuz he looks fairly straight. Oh God I miss him so

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Sreenshot of a video on his fb. He n his dad were shooting. He wanted 2 go more but not if high.
I uploaded this cuz he loved it and I bought it 4 him 4 Xmas. He had a strong force or personality
He luvd this pic of his two grandma's and me. This was at nursing home n they were still doing well
I love this pic. Just looking at it makes me miss him more, if that's possible. He was 15 or 16.
Luv this. Makes me miss him terribly. That smile was contagious and his eyes were so pretty.
I Hate to walk cuz bad knees, back n feet. Stephen knows this but I'd walk, rest, walk and crawl.

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Not alot of Mike here. I felt it fitting Stephens dad should be here. Stephen n Mike were close...
This was made for me by my cousin Judy. It is Stephen's T-shirts and worn recently. I love it.
This one is Nicole's.quilt and us made from his T-shirts. My cousin made them for us. I love them.
I go thru life like this, hate no one, forgive, be humble and do for others. Can you say this?
This is sooooooo true. Time is just lent to us and we repay when gone. Nothing is permanent really
People need to be reminded. But they don't see these. I get them from 2 FB groups Mama's belong to.

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It is true, my world is changed and I am forever changed. I can try to be happy but only Mike knows
I pray because Im a Christian, to be able to see him again. He tore my world apart when I lost him.
The date is set now. I'm preparing and planning. Tins of yard work along with his memorial tree.
I may have put this here earlier BUT, I just live this pic. I miss his smile n his pretty blue eyes.
I don't know who I am other than a mother who lost her son. Thank God I have a hubby n daughter.
A butterfly was flying around me for a bit and then flew on Stephen's chest on a flag on the patio!!

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Well I've changed his invitation to his memorial jamm. So this is the final that's going out
This is crazy. Maggie loves to lay on Stephen's quilt. She knows it's got Stephen's smell on it
This is how I feel. I miss you more than anyone can imagine and I'm waiting for your arms to hug me
I speak your name as much as I can. You were here and u were loved by many people, not just family.
All done almost. Need polyurethane. Ashes buried n stones done n placed by fam. N friends. Thanks
His magnolia with his ashes n stones placed. A shot of the yard. We do luv our yard for parties.

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This is what I'd like to send to a few supposed caring family members who never lost a child, & wont
Made by a member of my int. group for Mama's who lost a child to drugs. Only they know what I feel.
This says it all. I luv this pic. It was about 7;or 8 yrs ago. Not .sing yet, only a pill or pot
One of my baby's balloons from his party. I have 3 damn pics that came out too dark and I'm so mad.
I miss him more each day and can't accept it. I thought it was NOT going to happen. His ❤️ was hit
A fb friend fron Mama's who lost a child to drugs, #NotInVein, made this. I Can't 4get all of him.

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His 1st time at Neil Kennedy. He came home so happy filled with optimisim and straight for a bit.
This was also taken after the 1st stay at Neil Kennedy or after Stella. He was hopefully I remember
Not certain if this is on here. Steve's fav. Aunt n uncle. Lyn n Syl.
Found thison the cloud. Nicole don't like this pic but it's a good one of Stephen n we get no more
I don't think this one is on here. At Devins 2yr. Bday and Stephen has recently got out of Cty jail
This is true..every day is horrible, every day I miss him more every day he's gone! I hate my life!!

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Sooo true...the worst thing I could ever imagine and now, need not imagine cuz I'm living it...
My world is so shattered and empty and I still can't accept it that he is gone. Today is 8 mnths.
It doesn't. I will always love my son and now, I'm wishing away the days to see and hug him again.
So that all the time right. But not when I'm sleeping. No joke, the only time, thank God.
My world is really meaningless. I have Mike n Nicole but only them...not much family n friends.
Found this in Mike's cell. This was at Nicole's house and his last Xmas we would have him. 😭😪😭

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Found this one in Mike's cell. Summer at the apartment with Stephen's dear Cody. He lived him so.
His last ID. Mike is wearing Stephen's coat and found in the pocket and is gone, I want to die.
I don't think I have this one in here. Steve was such a card, good, funny man. This is with Jason
Don't think this is here either. Found these in Mike's cell. At my friend Di party like 6 yrs. Ago
This was when he came home from the 1st time at Kennedy. Me n his beloved Cody (nasty) he said.
This was 3 yrs ago at Devs bday I'm park. This is here but I enlarged this cuz a good pic of him.

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This is true. I learned at Cornerstone that many addicts are curious, creative, loving n warm hearte
This is a writing from Steve's guestbook here. I forgot it's here. Wish more people visited here.
Another visit from his guestbook. She was a good friend of Nicole's and over alot.
Another from his guestbook. Nice.
I don't remember anything from the 2nd trip to the hosp. Our of it from tranquilizers n so needed.
He would say this to me. He knew how much I I luvd him n how much I did for him but couldnt save him

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One pic of what Stephen left me. Thus was just there one summer more. Don't know how it got there.
This pic is blurry but best I could get from a video. He was walking away after messing with cody
I love this baby. It is where you will always be. I can't believe I'm typing this..I miss you so.
Another mama did this for me from the fb notinvein. Nice but kinda little. On his way to the Lord.
Sometimes people are too silent. That's not how I roll. Hearing caring thoughts is priceless!

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If ur energy Stephen, can you see all these pics and what I've said in other sites? Miss u horribly.
So hon, since you are energy now, I had to put a pic of our little Maggie her. She is a lil freak
A friend sent 2 me. Feel he has crossed over. Dont feel him near, but he's waiting 4 me.
Thos is what I need now, BIG HUGS. We r full of emotion, had to go to ct. for prob.violation
GOD IM DYING INSIDE AND NOBODY KNOWS... MISS YOU SO - LOVE MOM
I put this out here b4 but it's just so crazy cute I put it here again. He was with his dude Jason

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Most definitely true. Goes without saying for many other people and for many reasons.
This is my life now and NOBODY but Mama's can know. More wrenching and heartbreaking than any loss.
And yes screams internally and skips beats n hurts so very badly for my baby. Still can't believe it
Exactly
This is exactly how I feel & nobody knows except 4 my sis in law, n she doesn't want 2 talk about it
Undoubtedly this woman knew grief well after losing 2 sons and 2 or 3 grandchildren. My thoughts too

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This is how I feel and actually think you may be at peace. Are you? I pray u r cuz you deserve it.
A friend put this in FB today. She lost her son and I feel I'm being told to let u go but cant yet!
I think I no who left the cardinal ornament n verse in an envelope on my porch on Xmas Eve.Thank you
Here's a few pics Nicole had n forgot to show me. This was like 2 wks before we lost him.
Here's another from the restaurant. I'm so glad they went to eat that day. It was for their bdays.
From that day.

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Really like this. He looked good and I'm so glad they went that day. My baby is gone, God help me!
Unfortunately it seems I'm a mess every day or other. Some ppl almost almost say move on. F/U
Nicole found this in her cell. I sent this to her a few yrs ago. They are both good. Romeo was lil
This is all so true now. I do miss the me then. I know others miss me too but I can't help it.
I would do almost anything for these days. This was me n the next pic is me holding him at this age
My baby is gone until I see him again and I will. It will be too damn long tho n I have to wait

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So true. Never ending. Oh God, when am I going to be better?????? Is it really never?
Yep my mind is hit and no one knows my pain unless they lost a son who they were very very close to.
Live these pics. Don't think the are here. My baby. Id give my life tho for Nicole to have him here.
Don't thin this is here. He looked great then and I think this was before he started using heavy.
This is a good pic also. Same day as other one. Looks like he's a special agent. Lol! Never him.

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This is so often the case because I talk to him daily because I know he can hear me sometimes.
My baby's ashes, his alias name and a prayer card from his service
Cute..mStephen lived uncle Syl. He followed him everywhere.
This is two of my favorite pics. They were such buddies. I can still hear Nicole yelling Steve.
This was at our second house. He was about 4 here. Momma's Lil guy.
Love these pics. He was a good baby.

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Really cute. Mike and Stephen goofing around. Mike loved Steve even though they fought sometimes
I just had to leave this on his head that day cuz he looked sooo cute. My lil man is what he was.
How Stephen loved his grandmother. He loved her and when she died he cried so much.
Great pic. I remember Stephen was different back then. Before doing hard drugs. I miss him so much
We were camping here. I think he was about 5. Cute pic of him. Too bad light in his face.
Another pic of my dad in Hawaii. I think he was about 27 or so. Stephen definitely looked like him

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He was on the porch of our 2 ND house being silly. He was cute and cracked you up without trying.
Cute. Bnow that I think back, he always put everyones hat on and lived hats.
Luv this. Just took a bath and I remember handing a slippery wet Stephen to dad to dry. Lol!
Nicole n Jim were sooo close. Her 1st bestie. They were together always until their teens.
A lil blurry but a cute pic. About 3 to 4
Cute, our 2nd house in Brook Park. He was about 4.

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Blurry, but good pic. They watched the kids for a few days a week and lived them like their own kids
Him being silly at bday party. Nicole doesn't want to celebrate bday now. Him with Mickey. 1st dog.
Him w/aunt Laura n Alexis about 1 yr. So he was about 12 or 13. Probably at gmma B's house
I Love these 2 pics. He was 7 or 9 and Nicole 11 or 12. DARE didn't teach anything solid. Best days
Pic of his goofy smile n laugh. God know how I loved 2 laugh with him. Think he was with Delilah.
Blurry pic but he was sooo happy here at Quicken 4 AC/DC. 2nd concert he went to 1st Lynyrd Skynyrd

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This is from another I enlarged to see his silly face laughing. I remember he made a joke here.
Mike n him hugging. Nice pic for memories. I think Steve's hairs wet from swimming in our pool.
Almost forgot this. He was about 2 at1st 🏠 and Nicole 5. Id give anything for 1 of those days.
Also cute. Nicole about 4 n him 1in Tanya's arms.
One of my favorites. He was so happy he graduated. If we were in bkpk. no way. I was happy for him.
Two more from his day. He did it. Thank God at that time.

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This is from the American Lung Assoc. Lungforce Walk that we 4 went to. He raised sum $$. Great pic
This is so true. My heart is forever shaatered and U wait every day to see him and hug him again.
I think you are near me n see how I miss you. When I talk to u I pray u can hear men miss u horribly
This is so true and I also add for those who don't know and can't understand, fuck off if u judge me
My Stephen's heartbeat from his hosp. record. They treated us like shit and we'd like to take action
I didn't text me rite this but I muster the courage to get up every day and to try to find any joy.

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Yes my love never stops and has grown actually. My baby waits for me and his dad n sister. One day
Stephen's heartbeats. My poor baby just laid there with a damn machine keeping him alive. So wrong
I'm trying to stop torturing myself but I can't. My life now SUCKS without you. I'm hanging in here
So true, I know I'm better than I was because I'm going thru the stages on my own but some days, not
I'm sick of lying, but not many don't want to hear how I am, or may want but don't know what to say.
Found this one in fav. Album that was not here. The four buddies camping. We always had such fun.

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In just one, but actually 3. The worst days of my life as I tried CPR that fr. Then he laid 2 days
Have a hear 3 on my frig. Some of my favs. He was like 5 and Nicole, about 8. Inseperable buddies
Again from my frig. He was such a mommies boy. We were at Cape Cod, Mass. At my girls. He was 4.
At our big house in bpkp. He was about 5 and last pic of my dad. Stephen and he are together now.
I LOVE this pic. He was a grouch those days. Our 1st house just streets away. He was one or two.
This brought me to tears and usual, couldn't breathe. God how I miss you son. Still can't accept it

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Yes what can you do. Like days like tomorrow is ur bday baby. U never had a chance n you knew it
Yes we will meet again and I can't wait. The only reason I'm here is ur dad. Else I'd bite it quick
I tell his friends to speak his name, cuz he was here and was a good, kind, gentle, funny man n son.
Someone else wrote this but it is so true. Its what I will miss. Every damn min of all memorys of u.
Time heals but not wounds if the heart losing a child. There is no greater loss, especially for moms
The most Special, that and bond between daughter and hubby. No kids compared to these.

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About 3 yrs.He carried certain things around. A ball, a big spoon or one of my elephants. Good baby.
Not much to say here!
Again baby, Happy first Heavenly Birthday. I hope the lord gives you a huge bday cake. I pray ur ok
My baby, always smiling, always
I wish this were all true. It should be this way but some people are assholes and ruin and things
Our lil Maggie. Stephen would call her Skinny Weiner and she would get all excited. She loved him.

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His friend Jared, or he called him Garret, made this for me. This was when he lived with Delilah.
I'm hoping that something great will be in store for me cuz I'm definitely broken and chgd forever.
Yep, hoping I do but now, I'm still broken and he took a piece of my heart with him.
It was 2 yrs ago today that we had to put Cody down. It sucked, Mike, Steve and I. Steve loved Cody
Seen it his while in the room where I have many pics, ashes and plants. He was a happy baby.
How I think. It ruined him. Partying some with pills here and there is fine until he did this.

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I wish U had even one of these days to enjoy. They were doing dishes and splashing each other.
Him at Danny Boys. He had just got out of rehab n smoked pot only He did so good for a while.
Who the hell do some people think they are and how dare they judge me or other moms and their child.
I LOVE. Lil shits about to do somein not cool. Cousins, Tom,Toni, Steve and Nicole. We were camping

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His drug test a few hrs. after being admitted that nite. Nothing but pot and we ran another n same.
This is a nice verse and go ft. My friend who runs the accidental of group made this and a plaque.
My friend who runs the grief support group made this for me for Steve's bday. What a sweetie.
I had to post this again. My baby or the Lord did this for me. It's a miracle Thank you Steven. Mom
So true and I'm dead inside
Two cute pics when he was about 2 or 3 there with Nicole. I'd do anything for just 1 hr. 2 see Steve

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This is me holding on to the Lord's promise of a world of never ending love and I can see him again.
Yep if possible. Life is hard, hell is right here and now. But one day I'll see my Stephen again!
I love this. Another mama made this for me. My baby is gone s year. I still can't accept it.
I just found this in my email in my saved folder. Everyone had good things to say about him.
So wierd, another mama from my fb group, Not In Vein made this one. They picked the same pic.

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Cute of Stephen but it's upside down. He was like 6 and 7.
My pumpkin and Lil man. At our 1st house w150th n Barbara. His friend Mike lives there now. Wierd!
This is a camping picture too. Unfortunately Stephen had to wear glasses 4 bout 2 yrs. Still cute!
Too cute.. Lil man n pumpkin. They were surely buddies. Fight n then hug n be good with each other
Everyone said and I think also, that Steve looked just like my dad. N here's a pic of him in Hawaii

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My babies together at Devins 2nd bday party. I wish I could turn back time to days he was mine.
Yes and I wonder why I'm always feeling so drained and out of it. Grief can kill a person.
My old friend Darlene n Bill. She watched Stephen for awhile when he was like 1 to 4. Good person.
Had to put this here. He was about 1 wk. Had to be careful about his button cuz it got infected.
I love this pic. He looked really tired and probably spit out his bookie. He was a real good baby.
He was a yr. Here and when he was happy, he was happy and everyone knew. He had a cute personality.

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They were real buddies, and as Nicole said, he was her first best friend n now he is gone for her.
Another cute pic being so silly. He was s good baby and often smilin except for some temper tantrum
He was about 3 and lived Uncle Syl. He followed him around n wanted him to pick him up all the time
Same summer and the other fee. He must of went up n down that slide 500 times that summer.
Here's the buddies together as always. they were best buddies. Oh my Nicole list her baby bro.
One of the bday parties for both of them. They were 3 yrs n 6 days apart so always done together.

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The same yr. Thinking of a wish before they blew out candles. Wish he wished to Iive a longer life.
Awesome pic. Stephen loved his grandma very much and when she passed he was so sad.
Lit for him on his 1st angelversary in heaven. Oh Lord I miss him. I'm forever changed and unhappy
My baby's display in his bedroom.
Yes never another call an I LL never see ur face again
I think there are many ways our body adapts to handle stress n sorrow and other things. Thank God!

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I miss you so do much and wait and I'm getting one day nearer each day 2 seeing you again. I luv you
I thought Steve had changed and not doing anything hard and maybe did. His tox reports were clean?
Thus is so true cuz I am lost, lonely and broken without my Stephen,. Oh Lord why did this happen...
I have lit s candle each day for my baby and will do it untill March 10th, the day of his service.
I really do and he spoke to me last yr. n he or the Lord burned or did something to create the heart
This is certainly correct. We are all different so why wouldn't our grief be different?

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I miss so much if you babe! So many Stephen things and I still can't believe you are gone.
So many many things remind me of you. From the foods I eat to things people say, each and every day
It sure does and now I know true heartache.
This says alot. I really love this.
This is very nice